How Things Have Changed...

Boy 'O boy how things have changed since my last post. I almost feel sad reading all of my older posts. How unhappy I must have been. I can certainly say I am in a much better place now a days. My relationship with my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ has definitely improved!! AMEN! I am also married to Mr. David C. Shaw now. He is my best friend in life and I cant imagine one day without him by my side (although with his current job I am alone two days in a row every four days). Not Complaining. I am also currently 8 months pregnant with our first born! David Noah Shaw should be here around the third of February (he has a mind of his, mind you so it could be sooner).

We live in Lovington New Mexico..... ya I know it's not TEXAS, but it will do for now! We are so blessed to live in a two bedroom, two bathroom house. Because you see not all newly weds have this luxury. We are so thankful that God has provided David with a good job so we can afford our lifestyle (which isn't to fancy if thats what your thinking). Nope we live the simple life, and I must say it works for us. Why complicate things anyway? We belong to a wonderful Church family here in Lovington. The First Baptist of Lovington, where I (and David when he's off shift) teach the 3rd and 4th grade Sunday school class. Sometimes I find teaching the class somewhat difficult because I myself am learning right along side with the kiddos, but I believe that is where God wants me so I'm going to stay a while and get comfy with sharing the word.

I love my life despite all the struggles and hardships. I know God has it all under control so who am I to worry about the little things. (A lesson I have just recently been able to grasp).

Africa; Little Baby Girl.

Well David has been gone almost two months now, and I believe I'm absolutely going crazy!!! I have 10 more days until I get to see him and I couldn't be more excited. These passed few months I've had to rely on my friends and family to keep me sane and I owe them all greatly. If it weren't for them I really don't know if I would have made it. I don't know if he will be going on any more mission trips for this amount of time, but at least I know I can handle it now.

My sister Michelle is having a little girl :) I am Soooooooo Excited that we are having a girl! I love Hudson so much but I can buy cute little foo foo things for her and thats exactly what I'm going to do!!!!!!!! :D

My Life As Angela.

For some reason, I can't keep my head up, nothing is positive anymore. I never have anything to do, I can't find a job, I have very few friends, and I hate school. Nothing goes my way, and I feel like I'm suffocating in my own negative thoughts. I haven't been treating people the way they should be treated and I can't help but feel bad for it. I think I have been working on making so many other people happy that I have forgotten that I need to be happy too! I deserve to be happy! I should be happy!?

• I have an AMAZING boyfriend.
  
• The Greatest Sisters.
  
• The Most Lovable Nephew.
  
• A Best Friend.

Why Do I Feel like I'm Missing Something? :(

Call Me James Bond..

Because finding a job in this town is like MISSION IMPOSSIBLE! Just yesterday alone I applied for 14 different jobs, and have yet to receive a call back from any of them. Yes I know its only been like 16 hours 26 minutes and 25..26..27.. seconds since I have applied but COME ON PEOPLE, I need money! Now not that money is that important in life, there are far more things that matter to me like Family, Friends, Love..... Blah Blah Blah.... But I need to get out of this house NOW!!! I want an apartment furnished or not I don't care. And I want to be completely independent! (not that I haven't been almost entirely since May of 2000). I guess I'm just tired of taking care of someone who should be taking care of me.

On February 19, 2010 We lost a good friend, Keston Tyler Marler. He had been drinking and decided to drive home (which was a few blocks away) and went over a large bump going very fast, he started sliding and over corrected his wheel and skidded into some weeds and hit a log, and his white Corvette went airborne a he got thrown out of the car. He was DOA (dead on arrival) and there was nothing anyone could do for him. When I got the news I couldn't believe it, someone I knew was dead from drunk driving. Although this passed year or so I hadn't hung out with Keston, he used to be one of my best friends and I cared about him dearly. He was a very outspoken and loud individual and really didn't care about what other people thought. I will always remember him and the memories we shared. R.I.P June 15, 1992-February 19, 2010

& This Should Be Fun.

WELP! Valentines Day is this Sunday. David is coming to Odessa on Saturday for the OHS VS. PHS Alumni game. Quality time with my family. OH JOY! Can't wait for the stupid comments and unfunny jokes to come, ohhhh & the criticism, cannot forget that. Then Sunday It's just gonna be me and David Alllll Day! :) I Can't wait. To bad he's already seen his gift. Stupid camera phones.

This morning I went to Wal-Mart to get an oil change, and my nephew a Valentines present; everything was fine & dandy, until my total came out to $83.25! I knew this wasn't right, but when i questioned the lady at the desk she had no idea. I could hear the air flowing between her ears. So I paid, and walked to my car. As i looked at my ticket I realized it said I was a RED LINCOLN TRUCK, and My "TRUCK" required 7 bottles of oil. Hmmmm? I looked all around me, to find myself in My BLUE DODGE CALIBER just as I had suspected. So I walked back in and told the same lady about the confusion, and in a small quiet voice she said "I don't know how to fix it"! I couldn't believe it. Did she expect me to just pay it anyway. Well I said she better find a way. And an hour later I received my change, which was $43.25! WOW!

I Hope the rest of the week gets better.

Rude People!

Make Me Sick. Enough Said.

And Everyone Take A Deep Breath

One shower down, plenty more to do. I'm so grateful that Michelle and Hudson came down early, I love when they are around. We always have such a fun time, watching Hudson sing and dance and play. Now It's time for the "Hudson Withdrawals" to take effect. Steph's shower went great! A lot of people showed up and she got tons of awesome gifts. I know she was thankful for all she got. I Had my jewelry party as well, and I think it went pretty well. Not a whole lot of people showed up but the ones that really matter came to support me, and I am very thankful for that. Maybe I'll book another after the wedding and it won't be so rushed. I went to Lovington yesterday to see my wonderful boyfriend David. We went to church, had lunch with his mom, dad, and little sister, then had a marathon of The Cosby Show for five hours. I really couldn't ask for a better boyfriend then David. He's so nice and sweet to me. I really haven't experienced a relationship that has been this serious this fast but I'm definitely happy to be in one now. We only get to see each other once a week (sometimes more) so I really do cherish every moment I have with him. Not to be all mushy but he really is amazing. :)